8-17-23
FEELING OVERWHELMED?
Have you ever felt overwhelmed? What do you do? How do you deal with it?
Right now, I am feeling overwhelmed. It’s been five months since the house explosion when we lost everything.
There is so much to process. My main focus is healing my physical body, but there is also healing of my emotions, which includes grieving the loss of our home, our way of life, our beautiful golden retriever named Angel, and especially the loss of my feet.
I had an incredibly speedy and miraculous healing for four months, and then everything came to a halt, with setback after setback.
I am having to learn how to deal with all the setbacks, disappointments, frustration, anger, and depression, which can be very overwhelming then I have to be positive all the time.
I know I must stay strong and positive, not only for myself but for everyone else.
Sometimes it’s too much to handle, I just can’t do it. So I must give myself permission to allow myself to have all the emotions, and feel what I feel, such as sadness, anger, frustration, etc.
Sometimes when I am feeling really overwhelmed, I like to take a teddy bear or pillow and pretend it is God, holding me, loving me up so I don’t feel so alone.
I like to give myself space and time to process, taking all the time I need without judging myself for taking so long. And then be willing to take it day by day. Tomorrow will be a new day.
Sometimes I am okay with losing my feet, other days I mourn the loss of my feet.
Then we are still grieving over Angel.
For the most part, I am ok with losing our home, but now we are homeless and we have no idea where our home will be.
This is hard for me, as I feel stressed because I’ve always been a planner, and I need to know what, when, and where. And I have no idea where we will move to after I get my prosthetics and I can walk.
It is the unknown that bothers me the most, not knowing anything. When will I be able to get my prosthetics, when will I be able to walk, and where will we be living?
It is also the waiting game, we cannot find a place to live until I can walk, so everything revolves around when I am walking. We do not know when that will be, a month, 2 months, 3 months, or longer. We cannot do anything except wait.
Having to deal with all these different aspects, is very over-overwhelming.
God is telling me, that I need to take baby steps and focus on one issue at a time. You cannot do everything at once and you need to put your attention on one thing at a time. When you can do that, it is easier to manage and life is not so overwhelming.
Sue Love
